Red and Yellow are beautiful. With a hint of both into each other, but never mixed.
This is related to a previous post Too Late The First
Red: I think I always knew.
Yellow : That this won’t last?
Red: That it wouldn’t kill us to part.
Red: Just one of those things, we wanted to get involved because we really wanted to, no baggage, now we genuinely want to part, so we are, there is no point in sensing misery.
Yellow: It’s not that simple.
Red: I think if I ask you to explain, you’ll get why I disagree with you.
Yellow: You always have to imply that you can never be wrong.
Red: Please tell me why it isn’t simple.
Yellow: Red, look. I know this was all therapeutic and worth experiencing, but relationships are not Maths or Chemistry where a result is definite with no probable alterations, in respect to time.
Red: Are you suggesting I’ll miss you?
Yellow: I will I think.
Red: I didn’t think this through, I thought we both really wanted this.
Yellow: We do.
Red: Okay, I think I’ll really miss this later, but may be I won’t, you can’t be sure either. But wait, that’s reason enough to not part?
Yellow: I am not suggesting to drop this idea.
Red: Then why are we complicating this?
Yellow: I don’t understand why you don’t understand, these realizations come naturally.
Red: okay, I don’t know what your whole point here is. It’s I who should be worried about the backlog, the missing and the sleepless nights.
Yellow: There, you finally said it.
Red: What? You want me to? We both know this, I don’t want to bring it up because today, at this moment we want a closure and we are willingly doing it, and you are clear where you are heading to once you step out of that damn door.
Are you upset that I am not upset enough?
Yellow: No, I just think it’s important for both of us to beware of the feelings we might suffer post this.
Red: Don’t make it worse.
Damnit I was going out for drinks tonight with my buddies.
Yellow: If this is how you want, cool.
Red: Fuck you. Fuck you and your serene love interest. Is this a fucking orientation program you are running here? Why is drama so important to you? Let me call Blue and apologize for my absence at the planned dinner.
Yellow: I just can’t digest how lightly you are taking this. And don’t swear on what I did, I at least, have one person I desire.
Red: And that suits you, not me. That’s the whole scene here. You found your soul somewhere else, I can’t find any comfort in one soul. And so we are both free.
I’ll miss you? Yes, fucking yes I will. But what are you going to do about that? What will I do about that? We are our first, really late firsts, and nobody can change that.
But now you want A I want B.
Yellow: But you were different about us, weren’t you?
Red: Yes, why?
Yellow: I feel if I would have agreed upon us, becoming one forever, you wouldn’t have gone soul searching on every other person.
Red: So that makes you guilty, not me.
Yellow: I do feel guilty.
Red: Whatever you said is not a lie, I couldn’t deal with your rejection then, but if you ask me today, I can’t imagine a future with anyone, including you. I got a chance to explore, and now I am very clear of what I like. So you may feel whatever but I’d suggest if you want to feel better, forget about that, clearly I have.
Yellow: I always sense a complain in your explanations.
Red: I believe I don’t contribute in that sensation of yours.
Yellow: You were the sincere one, the over thinker, that observes too deeply, sometimes it’s uncomfortable but makes one feel very, very special. And It’s too drastic, this current feelings you hold, too hard to believe.
Red: Not drastic, you have seen me through the process, and you know I love it.
Yellow: Please say something too honest, something that I’d expect from the old Red.
Red: Well, I think you deserve this, I am just a bit scared. True, I enjoy no baggage, true you aren’t really the explanation to my choice, but I am just a little scared. My one constant is leaving the home.
Yellow: *sigh* Makes me sad but very satisfied. Thanks.
Red: Ummm well.
Yellow: Well, I’ll see you soon.